Waiting.
5035 words I wrote for longjackets on the most auspicious occasion of her birthday, and that mostly tell the tale of Merlin's adventures in friend-making. And his loneliness. But mostly the friend-making. And the mourning of friends made. look, it's not his fault he just won't die like a normal person, okay?

Anyhoo. I wrote something that doesn't completely suck, so here.

Fic, which I wrote for roguemouse ages ago when she asked for it. In typica fashion, civilization has collapsed for reasons unspecified...

And she'll know me by the sound of my hoping, PG.
2058 words.
Title taken from Josh Ritter's Empty Hearts.
Beta'd by too_rational who is a sweetheart and put up with my weird 'writers are odd folk' moments. A real trooper, that lady. All remaining errors are mine.

don't let me into this year with an emtpty heart, with an empty heart.

My friend, who does not like that "that sifi-fantasy CGI mental handjob business" has just uttered this one:

R: in the immortal words of one Jimmy T. Kirk: bullshit.
Me: *_* heeeeeeee!!! I've totally roped you in. I've totally roped you in. I've totally roped you in.
R: Crap. So this is what being corrupted feels like. Well, at least Mr Kirk is a hotass.

Also, this post is for my girl maboheme  whom I promised some reccing of the type I've been neglecting. Hence:

Were you looking for a magical kingdom inside that wardrobe by Netgirl_y2k over at AOOO  Merlin/Morgana, Arthur/Gwen. In which there is absolutely no ravishing. Of anybody, at all. No matter what Arthur says. Kind of relentlessly hilarious with a touch of awesome and some seriously fantastic dynamics.

Through the dark by kepp0xy  . Wherein Morgana hones her magic and Merlin lends a helping hand (I may have a thing for this particular idea, I think you'll notice). Incidentally, this author has a wonderful array of fics I think should be checked out since they span all tastes and possibilities.

Drastically Redefining Protocol by rageprufrock . I think the chances you haven't read this one are slim, however in case you haven't here, have some. Arthur is Crown Prince of England, Merlin works at a hospital and Uther passes out in ottomans. Also Gwen and Morgana are kind of stellar. Satisfying long fic, this one. Arthur/Merlin of the boy-on-boy variety.

Peppermint Wind by miakun . Another Merlin/Morgana one, this one being several times more awesome on account of it taking place in the present and over exotic fruit. Not an AU, btw.

Behind Closed Doors by miakun . Insanely hot A/G/Mer piece where they're private investigators and also a totally hot threesome as often as possible. Like, really. So very NC-17.

What Happened When The World Fell Apart by iambic. This one is a really good read, takes place in a steampunkish universe and it's structured in such a way that the story is told both as if read from the official history book and the POV of the characters involved. It doesn't seem to make much sense at first, but then you get into it (if you do get into it) and it pays off beautifully. One of the first fics I read in this fandom.

Ever Mine by blackmamba . She has a number of beautiful fics, I think I could simply rec you everything she's written in this fandom, actually. This particular one  has an ethereal quality to it you can almost touch (figure that one out! hehe), from all the characters' POV as they experience a series of supernatural moments that closely relate, one way or another, to Morgana and her ability. Lovely way to look at relationships dynamics.

An Ever-fixed Mark by imperfectcircle . I think this is my most favoritest one so far. They're a seduretu and if you don't know what that is, there's a brief explanation in the fic, if you do know what that is, then what the hell are you doing still here? you should be over there getting drunk on plot and love and pitch perfect voices. If there is one fic on this list you want to read and ditch the others, this is the one. Trust me.

in omne tempus by giddygeek . Of power and what it means to be a woman in this male dominated world of Morgana. Tremendously sensual Morgana/Gwen.

A Cautionary Tale About Tomatoes (and zombies) by Netgirl_y2k. Wildly hilarious, I mean there are zombies in it, but that's not even the part where it gets ridiculously funny.

A Little Knowledge by bluflamingo . Morgana and her sheer fierceness save the day.

Don't Be Sorry by sparky77 . Another one where everybody loves everybody and Arthur used to climb into Morgana's bed at the age of five because some things are always right in the world.

Aaaaaand Five Lessons by Selena. Because I couldn't NOT include this one. Five lessons Arthur's learned that shape the sort of man he is. It's a beautiful character study piece.

Um, yeah, since you don't know the sacrifices I've had to make, I'll just point you to my delicious tag on these four so that you can go there, if you're still interested.

I may or may not have spent the entire afternoon neglecting my duties procrastinating not writing stuff reading ST fic. And, um, most of it may or may not have been Sulu centric. It's not confirmed yet, the jury's still out (or refusing to come back in because they, as I, may be kind of embarrassed by the undeniably unanimously reached verdict), but I may or hey, may not, have a thing for Sulu's unrelenting awesomeness.

Yeah.

::patiently waits until her ST fever dies down a bit:: ::she means it, dammit::

No, really. Take a guess.

Well, ST of course.

RECS! Because I'm generous and stuff. Also, I feel my life is more complete after having read this stuff, which means I'm likely to smile more often simply by remembering bits and ends. Now, assume one of this memories jumps on the passenger seat while I'm walking down the street, assume now that the inevitable smile that takes over my face, somehow, gets passed on to somebody else and, for a little while at least, their day is that tad bit brighter.  Isn't that a nice assumption?

MY OBSESSIVE ST FIC READING COMES FROM ENTIRELY ALTRUISTIC PURPOSES. I'M MAKING THE WORLD A BETTER PLACE READING ABOUT JIM KIRK'S CREW HIJINKING IT IN SPACE.

Y'all bow to me, now.

The following are PG, so, safe for everyone and their dogs.

Only the Good Die Young by _seven_crows  Chekov being adorable. Also, Kirk makes sound effects, there are discussions about naked singularities, Spock takes on responsibilities that may not be quite as suited to him as originally thought. Much fun is had by all. Unless you're Chekov.

Four Consequences of the Unexpected and Unlikely Friendship Between James T. Kirk and Nyota Uhura bytrisfic  Laugh. Out. Loud. And then some. It is slightly terrifying because, zomg should this two ever become this awesomely BFFs the galaxy should tremble. There's some poetry involved, as well.

The Enterprise: of Warp Barriers, Captains, and Other Scary Things by karanguni  some more Chekov being generally awesome, and Kirk being all-around trouble. Also featuring Spock figuring stuff out in a heart beat and being appropriately stoic about it.

A Fucking Space Opera (or Six Characters Who Didn't Board The USS Enterprise) by oxoniensis  Fandoms crossover ahoy! Sam and Dean are in it too.

Captain Awesome and His Amazing Enterprise by vaingirlfic  they are in a rock band. High School AU but that's not the point, the point is: THEY ARE IN A BAND. Surprisingly? not as cracky as the premise suggests. Still, tremendously hilarious because, get this, they are in a band.

People Who Repair Quantums, or Five Planets the Enterprise Never Visited by ignipes  This one is possibly my favorite so far. Every single piece is perfect and also? it features fandoms that I've been known to fangirl pretty hardcore. Kind of taylor-made, if you will.

Um. This is it. For now. I have to go categorize and track down put in one single place all the others I want the world to see (again, most likely). If you've already read these ones, well then go read again because they are just. That. Good.

::hearts::

Been feeling odd, lately. As if I had this well inside my head, this pit of ideas waving and revolting around, making themselves known, making me stop and stare. And then I grab my legal pad and... they're gone. I wanna write and, apparently I can, the ideas are there which is sort of fundamental for the craft, I think, but I don't seem to have the drive. Or something.

I'm intimidated by a legal pad.

Don't even wanna bother with the laptop.

But, this is a happy day because I am convinced that leaves are falling! Finally!

So, back to the original reason for this post (when in doubt, always ask your flist), does this lack of drive, as I have christened it, happen to you? If so, how do you handle it? Advices?

Hey y'all! How's it going?.

Well, I'm home (though it's not really home, it's just a house where they make me sleep in an inflatable matress ::pouts::) and, um, heating actually works here and I never thought I'd miss my shitty heater back in my place (where I get a bed) but Jesus, it's smoldering in here! Sorta.

Also, I have recs. I'm awesome, I know.

Apples and Expectations by pr_scatterbrain. Is an RPF that pairs Jensen with Eva Green. I made noises even though it is thoroughly PG-13. Great voice, lovely style and well, it gives the visual of EG standing next to the Ackles, and um, exactly how do you turn that down?

Cover by alethialia. It's a M/A with a very snarky Alec (is there any other kind?) and a Max that goes along because really, it's Alec. Anywya, A wrote it so you should, like, go read. Now.

I got a job! Yay

I'll be working behind the counter in the morning shift at a coffeeshop. I'm deliriously happy. Finally I'll get a paycheck and all that!

Sadly this will reduce my writing hours a little, but I enjoy a good challenge, so Mousey, before you start hyperventilating, I want you to know that I will not abandon ship!
It's only a half time job so that'll leave me the whole afternoon and most of the night to have a life. Which is where the writing comes in.

OMG I got a job!

I landed in Second Place! I can't believe it! Oh sweet baby Jesus, I'm second!

I mean that Arts Contest my university was hosting. I won the Second Place with "The Fingerprints of Rain"

::spins in chair:: I won something!!!!